One colonic please…

So I finished my week of Sitting Shiva.

I reflected upon this last year and tried to find the lessons I was to learn. This cleansing of my soul, centering and starting of the new was supposed to be a smooth and easy process. It wasn’t to be so. 

Instead the past year was like a colonic given by a first year med student. It was painful and there wasn’t a lot to smile about but the Shiva was a good thing for me.

Every night for a week I drew the curtains, climbing into bed at 6:30 PM with my son, TV on, laptop in place, backgammon, checker board and homework all on the bed.  In that week I not only was able to reflect upon this past year but we both got a lot done. The ebook about Women Building Wealth is coming along and should be almost finished as is the new interview series on disk. I’m finally heeding the advice from Michael Gerber who wrote the book, The E-myth Revisted. 

Anyhow, I’ve decided to implement Michael’s suggestion at outsourcing and I am going to test out the theory of the Law of Attraction and work on the feeeeeeling of the thought that Lynn Grabhorn talks about in her book, Excuse me your life is waiting. I do beleive that you reap what you sow, that if you do good good will come to you and I get the whole concept about all forms of energy and that like kind is attracted to like kind.

When I look at this last year’s events it simply asstounds me…how much shit I’ve gone through! I’m used to the roller coaster ride of risk but goddamn. For those of you that missed it, here’s what I’ve been dealing with:

All of my savings gone.

Unemployment funds gone.

My “soul mate” walked out on me <snap> Just like that

My house was being foreclosed on

Business was scarce and nary a Buyer in sight.

 My home was burgalarized and everything was stolen.

My car’s front windshield was not sealed properly. I found that out when we had our first big rain and the passenger side of the car floor was flooded with water!

And my tenant annouced that she was moving out and withholding her rent.

To say the least this past year I’ve been trippin.  You know when people say to me, “Oh my god, what are you going to do?” and instead of answering to them directly I think to myself and whisper, “its not what are you going to do but what little pill will you be taking today? The blue one or the white one?”

This last year was an endless roller coaster ride that was plunging top speed on its way on down. Angst and anxiety ridden I had insomnia from worry. I almost had a nervous breakdown flying 75mph down the freeway while arguing with my frail 72 year old mother. I was totally losing it and then a switch was turned for me.

I had to go back to basics. Rebuild from the ground floor up. Have a goal in mind, believe in yourself and take action.

By starting to make that shift of wanting to focus on the glass as half full and recognizing through the day what is happening to me and trying to consciously create my day…better things have been happening. Wing and a prayer? The gods and goddesses? My guardian Angel? No clue. But, I’ve been reading some good books, one of them you should take a look at is, “Excuse me your life is waiting!” by Lynn Grabhorn.

If I were Dr. Phil and I’d heard about all the crap I was dealing with I’d ask? “So, how’s that working out for ya?” Well its not. So I’m going to see how and if I can get concrete results from practicing the Law of Attraction and for me that means focusing on the accomplishments that I make each day, the new business connections I make, the jobs I’m offered, the extra time I get to spend with my kid, being grateful that I have a career that does offer me the freedom I need…and the list goes on. 

What I was doing in the past certainly wasn’t working for me because it somehow manifested itself as crap this year…hence the topic line “One colonic please”.

The cleansing and the Sitting Shiva or maybe I should have called it Shitting Shiva, could be a blessing in disguise.  I have started to focus on the following accomplishments:

My website/blog is up and almost where I want it to be and how I want it to look.

I am almost finished with the Women Building Wealth ebook and CD interview series v.I

I somehow and miraculously was able to get a few of my outstanding bills out of the way.

I was able to save my other home from foreclosure. It took 10 months but that puppy IS going to close. 

I saved my credit from hitting the 500 mark

I’m still have my first home that serves me well.

Lots of people are calling about the unit so moving the current tenant out with a new one seems to be on the realm of reality.

And I’m excited and looking forward to taking Alex McGee’s course.

The insurance company already paid for the damage to the inside of my house

What ever cleansing the universe has given me I get it. I submit.  I’ll get out of my own way and let it happen.

Back on Track

I keep thinking about the past 2 years and the unwise financial decisions that I made. I think one of the biggest lessons for me was don’t bet it all or think that you don’t need a financial safety net. If I were to do things differently today, which I am, I would make sure that I was financially sound. Period.

You should check out the movie below.